Quarantine Conundrums

Hello all out in Quarantine-Land!

Like many I have chosen to look at this from a positive point of view.  I don't feel as tho I am locked in my house, but that the reset button has been pressed for me.  I feel invigorated mentally tho I know I am physically weakened from not moving as much as I used to.  I have to force myself to set a timer and do laps around the living room and sometimes extend into the kitchen...if I'm feeling really exploratory.  #sarcasmrocks 

I am enjoying freedoms such as this to remember that I used to blog and loved it and now I have the time to pick it up and make time for it again, for creativity and new projects, for cleaning and eliminating excess from my life, for face-timing/zooming and or texting and calling those that I don't spend as much time communicating as I would love to.

I wanted to take my stimulus check and be a baller, but instead did the most responsible thing and paid off a debt that has been the root of family issues for the last year that caused others not involved to take to heart something that had nothing to do with them and rid themselves of me from their lives tho I did nothing to them, including my own mother, and those that kept my nephew who is the apple of my eye and means the world to me away from me.  They know how to hurt me, but they don't realize...they've hurt him too.

With therapy I have been able to take the high road and not play into my flesh that just wants to be as mean if not meaner than them.  Yes, when I paid off my debt, I thought I'd pay over a grand in bitcoin...dark I know...but it's still payment in full and that those that kept me from who I love can figure out how to exchange it for cash.. not my problem---but I didn't!  The day my stimulus arrived I called and gave notice that the check for payment in full was in the mail and I stuck by my word.  NOT EASY!  That included paying hundreds extra than the original agreement...just do it  my brother encouraged me or it will always be hanging over your head and he was right, so I did and as much as it sucks...I'm glad I paid an extra $500.  My slate is clean-my debt is more than paid in full.

I've done shopping for others, gave of my extras to those who are immune-compromised.  I didn't have much, but they need Clorox wipes more than me, antibacterial soap more than me and you know what...It just felt good to give as it always has, but moreso in these difficult times when price-gouging is prevalent and preying on those in need.  We simply bartered.  They were offering eggs and I was willing to pay, but they offered to barter so...that works for me.  I mean, that's how people did years ago.  I left their goods on the porch and picked up the beautiful, brown eggs.  This isn't about bragging, it's about learning we can still do this AFTER quarantine.

My biggest issue is people not keeping their distance.  I am not paranoid at all.  But you're told for a reason stay 6 ft. away.  I didn't like people in my bubble BEFORE this virus, now the government and all the stores are telling you to STAY 6ft. AWAY.. so fuckin' do it!!!  I think people who take issue w/ my having an issue need to check themselves.  

Why is it you have a problem w/ people wanting others to follow the rules- for protection or just because it's the rule?

Same w/ the lonely.. look I'm home alone too, but I'm not gonna ask anyone to travel unnecessarily to see me just cuz I'm lonely.  The government said no unnecessary travel...so don't be pissed cuz your family and friends aren't coming to visit.. They're doing as instructed so YOU don't have to stay home longer!!!  DUH!

I've got a lot accomplished and could get a lot more.  Here's to what's left of my quarantine time.  Good luck everyone!

Later gators!