Do you have that ONE person that thinks the WORST of you no matter how many changes for the better you make? It doesn't matter how much time, money, energy, blood, sweat, tears you spend working hard via therapy, church, clean living and so on investing into yourself to better yourself and become a better human for yourself and for others there might just be that one person who:
* no matter what will still think the worst of you
* no matter what they STILL bring up your past transgressions, be they true or false, even if others have committed far worse YOUR transgressions ALWAYS outweigh anyone else's
* no matter what you are the big, bad wolf-the bully-the enemy------the person who is the cause of ALL their problems and all the problems in their family--YES--you HAVE THAT MUCH POWER. You are the dark cloud they are convinced their lives are perfect without.
* the whole world could deem you a Saint, you could save their lives, save their kids lives and YET, you would STILL be dark and not light, wrong and not right.
I am here to tell you...it will never change.
They will never change.
If you want to love them, if you feel the need to do so, you must do so from a distance no matter how "hard" it may be.
But think about it. How hard could it really be if they treat you like shit and have shown you repeatedly that they really do not like you at all? Yes, that's a tough pill to swallow.
Oh, but it's a "family" member...gurl, please.... get yourself a tribe. "Family," "blood" does not mean shit! They will do you like they will do a stranger in a minute. Call you a motherfucker and cut you like a fine fillet. Do not keep hanging on to people who CLEARLY have shown you they care NOT A BIT about you, not ONE iota, NOT A DAMN.
MOVE THE FUCK ON AND DO NOT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ANYONE BUT YOU
clearly they can and HAVE done the same.
*OUCH* did that hurt? Then it is true sister/brother...so while they're NOT giving a fuck about you, NOT loving you, NOT supporting you, NOT caring about you---DO THE FUCKIN' same!
If you've moved on and let go of the past and THEY can't-GUESS WHO'S GOT THE PROBLEM?
NOT YOU MY FRIEND
Step into the light and away from those shadowy no-goods that mean you nothing but harm.
Keep moving through. Moving forward. Doing great things, making YOU better, kinder, more spiritual, more loving, more forgiving, more creative, more passionate, more of whatever you want to become that is positive and amazing and continue to cast off and shed the things of the past that have held you down and kept you a slave---including people---including "family."
Keep doing you, Boo!
